Explode + Me = Happy Ending

Am I allowed to vent on here?
Does it make any sense that the Internet is soooooo broad, that a search of my name could bring up any blog I've ever posted?
If not for free speech, blogs would not exist, but yet I still feel restricted as to what I can say.
And I can't even elaborate on why that is!!!

It's soooo darn frustrating that I feel heavy burdens and hurts in my heart, but can't say a damn thing because of "who" might read it.

One of these days, you'll probably see my blog explode. Explode into a complete mushpot of crazy thoughts and words that probably won't make any sense to the general public. But to me, it could be a HUGE weight lifted off my chest.

I need to get to the point where I don't care who reads what I say. I haven't been cruel in anything I've said (thus far) and don't intend to.

Someday... this ticking time bomb will go off.
The end.

"No Title for this Blog" Blog

There's quite a bit going on right now and it's hard to keep up. This is the first time in my "Mommy" life I've had to keep up with so many different schedules. I got myself a calendar with different stickers and different colored pens and started labeling the calendar dates per family member activity. Sheesh. Jordan is in Kindergarten, Landon is starting Kindergarten on Monday, Mikey is going back to school and starts this evening, I'm psychotically busy myself and Cam keeps me busy enough just being himself. lol You can only imagine what this calendar looks like - best description would be a melting pot of red, purple, pink, green and blue colors. LUCKILY, none of the school activities overlap each other, so we're good. Busy, but good. :)

Speaking of Jordan, my big girl had her 5th Birthday Party over the weekend and it was just a blast!
It was all Hannah Montana themed, stars everywhere, we rented karaoke, went swimming and just overall, had a really good time.
I made this cake for her and I would do it again in a heartbeat! lol





















Then....

She had her first day of Kindergarten!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, I cried walking away from her classroom that morning. It is insanely crazy how fast they grow up. But she loves her class and I am so so proud of her!















On to Wednesday: Landon had his assessment testing for Kindergarten. Let me just start by saying the teacher immediately sat me down and told me my son was too young to start Kindergarten and he would most likely be on the "2 year" plan. (All based on past teaching experience, his birthday being in Nov and that he was a boy.) I refuse to be an overbearing parent that says, "Well my child is brilliant and will succeed in your class no matter what you say." But I didn't need to say that. Landon proved that to her himself and I was just beaming with pride. He was very polite, interacted well with the other little girl in the meeting with us, and scored 100% on Capital Letters, 98% on Lowercase Letters, 92% on Numbers 1-30, and the teacher thought he was doing so well, she threw in an extra test of Alphabet Sounds which he scored 47% on!!! None of the other kids tested so far took that test!!! She ended the meeting by saying, "You're right. He's very ready for Kindergarten. I'm quite impressed." So proud. So so proud.

Well, time to finish folding the never-ending laundry and clean.
PS - Can someone do a rain dance to make this heat wave go away??? :)

Princess Jordie turns 5!!!!!

5 years ago on this day, Jordan Emma was born into this world to my amazing husband Michael and his ex, Bree. (I'm being nice because this is for Jordie.) lol

I went and visited them the day after she was born because we were friends. After that day, I wasn't able to see her because both his ex and mine did not want us to be friends anymore since they could sense an obvious chemistry between us. hahahahaha Little did I know, a year later, I would become a major part of this little girl's life. Shortly after splitting with my ex and moving out with our nine month old, Michael and Jordan stepped into my life and we started to become a blended family. It hasn't always been the easiest situation (and that's putting it as lightly as possible), but living my life without her now wouldn't be living at all. I love her as my own. She looks up to me, confides in me as much as a 5 year old can, trusts me and most of all, loves me. And man do I love her!!!

So Happy 5th Birthday Jordie Girl!

You make me so darn proud to be your step mom and I look forward to the beautiful Christ-loving woman you become... let's just not get there too terribly fast, ok pumpkin? :)

Stories and Workouts

So Lights Out Night went great! We built the tent, made some popcorn, lit some candles, and read books. It really was great to spend that time with them with no distractions of regular life. After reading, I let the boys go through the books and make up their own stories based on the pictures.
Oh the imaginations they have!Daddy came home during the middle of me reading Scooby Doo, so he joined us for the remainder of fun. What a great family moment!!!

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On a side note, I've begun the P90X workout and MAN am I hurting!!! I can barely make it up our stairs right now and it's only been 3 days! lol Does that mean it's working? hahahahaha

Off to call some more wedding vendors and put away laundry. :) Have a great day everyone!

Lights Out!

One of the many joys of staying home with my kids is coming up with new and fun ways to entertain them within four walls. Yikes. Now let's not go crazy, k? K.

Ever so often, my husband has to work late, so the boys are all mine, all day long up to the minute they are asleep. To put it lightly, my boys absolutely love stories, the dark and popcorn. So what do I do? In our playroom, we make a tent made of blankets, chairs and some jump rope. Now, if you've ever tried constructing a tent from blankets, you'd probably understand the use of jump rope in all this. lol I pop some popcorn, grab our favorite books, some small votive candles (enough for light, but not enough to fry a blanket) and we sit under our makeshift tent in the playroom and read stories before bedtime. If I'm feeling extra nice (could be tough after an all-dayer), I'll let them sleep there. But both of them are restless sleepers, so moving around constantly could pose a problem. I could just see the two of them moving around, kicking a chair, jump rope snaps, blanket falls down, and I get a middle of the night scream: "Mommy! Our tent is ruined! My blankie fall down!" And then you have the 2am ultimatum of "Do I fix the tent and go back to bed or do I fight them to get in their own beds and sleep?" Yes, I know. The dilemmas you face as a mom.

So I'm preparing the blankets, getting out my candles, setting aside the books, all in preparation of our Lights Out Night. No TV, no movies, no video games. Just pure, uninterrupted Mommy-Boys time - did I say uninterrupted? Ha.

If you're a parent, I highly recommend this activity. It doesn't make for a huge clean-up and the kids really do have a great time. We'll take some pics and I'll post them on my next blog.

Maybe we'll hit up the 99cent store for some flashlights this time. :)

"Beediful"

This crazy week ended with a bang. There was an amazing turnout at VBS Family Night and the performances for the parents went off without a hitch.
My husband took some incredible pictures that I will forever be thankful for.
Both my kids were praising God, my mom came to support all three of us performing, and it was just an overwhelming energy one cannot begin to describe!
My mom treated us to Islands afterwards, where Cameron told her she was "beediful" (beautiful). I honestly think I saw her melting right in her seat. What a beediful moment. ;)





















Then this morning, I had some errands to run and low and behold, I got to go by myself!
*cue Triumphant music*
Recently, becoming a stay-at-home mom, it is very rare that I get any grocery shopping done, any checks deposited, any Venti frappucinos, any gas runs, etc, without my kids screaming at each other (or me) from the backseat. "Mom, turn on Take, Take, Take It All." "Mommy, turn up liddle peez." (Mommy, turn up the music little please) "Cameron, stop hitting me!" "Nandin (Landon), me do it." "Mommy, me sing!" "Mom, the sun is too hot for my eyes." "Mommy, where's Sissy (Jordan)?" And on and on and on.....
I deposited some checks, got my Venti frap from Starbucks, got school supplies for Landon AND grocery shopping!!! All in a few hours with just peace and my worship music on. Can we say "beediful"?

So now I'm home, still procrastinating folding the darn laundry, and listening to my kids watching Veggie Tales. And Landon has since figured out how to use the DVD remote, so needless to say, we may watch the same part 10 times before moving on. A person can only handle hearing "If you like to talk to tomatoes" so many times before going nuts. I think I'm going to remove the batteries! Ahhh yes!

*pause*

Dang it. He figured out the batteries were missing. Note to self: Must find a remote where the battery pack opens only by removing a screw like all the kids toys come with now!

Maybe I'll start folding that laundry now. Do you like to talk to tomatoes? :)

Spring Cleaning this early?...

If you think I've started de-cluttring, you're wrong.
If you think I'm getting rid of old clothes, you're wrong.
If you think I'm having a yard sale for un-used toys, you're wrong...

For the time being, that is.

I'm de-cluttering, re-organizing, getting rid of, throwing away and re-prioritizing my emotional state of being, my faith and my life in general.

I've neglected putting God first and that's going to change.
I've neglected focusing on those who truly meant the most to me and paid attention to the un-needed drama.
I've neglected taking that "me and God" time every day, but will avidly seek after Him now instead.

Emotional Spring Cleaning To Do List:
* Brush the dirt and drama under the rug
* Throw away the negativity out of my life and my family's life
* Prioritize and focus on the important things.

Yup. *sigh* What a transformation over a couple of months. :) Thank you Father.